She drew your name on the wall in pastel permanence
I would have seen it if I wanted
Colored biohazard symbols into the circles of your surname
"I should have seen it”
I repeat this like a mantra in hopes it’ll baptize me
But toxic things are often sweet
Artificial sugar
Sucralose
You apologized when it suited you
Silent days spent in the company of your contempt
I only spoke up when I had enough whiskey not to give a fuck
To cut the care from my body like it is legion
But damn, could we make that bitter, burnt coffee taste better
With the sheer velocity of our wanting
Sucralose
Chocolate chip pancakes
We smile over breakfast as if the words said had suddenly disappeared
These sweet-n-low stories I told myself
In the desperate attempt to make a permanent marker washable
She drew your name on the wall in pastel permanence
I would have seen it if I wanted
Colored biohazard symbols into the circles of your surname
"I should have seen it”
I repeat this like a mantra in hopes it’ll baptize me
But toxic things are often sweet
Artificial sugar
Sucralose
You apologized when it suited you
Silent days spent in the company of your contempt
I only spoke up when I had enough whiskey not to give a fuck
To cut the care from my body like it is legion
But damn, could we make that bitter, burnt coffee taste better
With the sheer velocity of our wanting
Sucralose
Chocolate chip pancakes
We smile over breakfast as if the words said had suddenly disappeared
These sweet-n-low stories I told myself
In the desperate attempt to make a permanent marker washable